kun mikän ei huvita

I'm feeling very unmotivated because of the Tokyo-not-maybe-coming-true thing. I have no motivation to do anything. Tokyo was my goal and prize for being hard-working and good student. I'm trying to come up with other plans but it's not working.

I'll know for certain in the end of this month, but I'm quite sure they'll pick the (academically) older girl. I hate her. Perkele.